Dublin Jack of all trades

I've been finding new and new things to learn before i die so i think time is here to make up a list:)

1. Learn astral projection (in progress)
2. Break a beer tankard so bad that only its handle is left in my hand
3. Learn to play piano
4. Learn photoreading
5. Swim naked in a river or a lake at night (done)
6. Learn calligraphy (in progress)
7. Learn japanese (in progress)
8. Learn irish (in progress)
9. See the sea
10. Cuddle a tiger
11. Beat someone up
12. Finish my maquette of the parliament
13. Have a feast day with my love, from waking up with him to having the best liquor, wine, food, cigar and love-making with him
14. Have children
15. Learn decor-carpentry
16. Learn smithing
17. Sleep an entire day through
18. Stay awake for 3 days at least (in a row)
19. Own a horse
20. See all best films
21. listen to all best albums
22. Read all best books
23. Learn my Purpose in life
24. Listen to an entire orchestra all alone
25. Have my ear pierced
26. try bungee jumping
27. try air gliding

list editable.

sweet holy crap, it's been an awfully long time here.
almost a year.

i wont dive into the happenings of this year, i'd hit my head i wanted to. The thing now is, that i'm a university student in our capital and studying japanese and philosophy.

recently, due to my loneliness in the apartment im loaning, and the complete ignorance of faculty mates, i've been doing a little research on astral projection. i have been interested in it a long a fo, but now actually im getting somewhere with it. i hvent succeeded yet but im on the way i feel. in fact, i'm interested in it because its a very powerful tool for self-research, and that's what im in dire need of. Ill have to change a bit in order not to distract any possible lovers or friends, doing of what im really successful. So theres a mission on astral projection, to visit my friends im cut off now, to visit myself i have never known, to visit places of complete freedom and peace.

hm.
i think this counts as a recap.

im boredimboredimbored.

bvah.

i've installed photoshop at last so i can post pics soon...in spite that i don't have a camera, i do have a phone with a somewhat good cam so it'll be it i guess.

anyway, i've started again to keep an art journal. it's not that really unique art journal like people have out there, but its fun to do and something to do, so its ok.

i went working yesterday and we have so much fun these days i should take photos if i dont want to forget. birthday parties almost every week, these goodfornothing schooldays, ill really have to combine them and have sme fun... my state of mind isnt as great as it should be:S

i'll be around soon, the class is out now, hallelujah

(oh and there are some new books on my book-site-journal-whatever fuzzy_squirrel )

I shouldn't have watched amélie...i feel kinda bad concerning love. I've made terribly stupid things recently. If i wasnt a philosopher i would say that i have regretted that i have done them, but i am philosophic so i say that i don't regret anything just learn from it. And yeah, this thing is pretty much it, i have learned things. but its gonna end soon. and it will be easier. everything will be easier.

yeah, that's the kind of thought what a child in kindergarten might think...'when i grow up, im going to be cool and have cool friends and do cool things like in films and ill know a lot and have good grades and have a happy and successful life'...well yea. but im not in kindergatren anymore so i'll have to cope with it i guess. nothing will be easier. this final exam, this love thing, all the stuff with julia are things that are going to make me suck. and sick.


i think i'll have to restart keeping an art journal. i miss it.

aww. i've abandoned this journal. im too lazy to do anything.

Merry christmas, everyone.

I miss some alcohol.

shit. fuck school.

fuck it.

exam is done. 86points out of 90.
plus 'writing' part and oral part.
Kinda staisfied. kinda relaxed.

What a shitty week.

i'm dead.

Some books, some english, some maths, some history, some french. Some desire.
Some beer.

The first good thing this week is the coat I've bought today. it's cool:) I only need a looooooooong funny colorful scarf to go with it.

I'm terribly sleepy...


things got settled with Andras. I hope it's going to last and i won't run back into his arms just to be hugged by someone...:(

the final exam is going to take place on the 29 oct. my form teacher said i can take a week or even two off before that because she would really like me to succeed and be happy, for a while at least.

We couldn't talk with Julia. I'm throwing my brain away. annoying.

i don't know what to do. i can't find my place, i'm wandering in the house without any exact thoughts or suddenly get up and sit back again or eat 3 or 4 chocolate bars a day.
i really don't know what to do. perhaps i'll even study something. i have litterature anyway.

*yawn* im bored. n sleepy.
I'll have to shop for clothes. but i really dont have money. it would be fun if i had and could buy whatever i want. i would buy some jewels too. i'm really out of them.

If i had much money, i'd buy:

-Cute knickers&bras (Edit: cute knickers- done:P)
-unique tees & shirts
-at least 3 pairs of jeans
-rings
-chokers
-decorative papers
-leather for carving &bookbinding
-funny shoelaces
-new sneakers
-a longlonglong scarf
-manymany books
-a bottle of fine liqueur (chocolate or french cassis)
-paints
-TIME(and a degree:D)

that's all i have in mind so far its very much shame on you greedy bastard

yippee.

( Books...newbies of the summer(excludes commissions) )

Here i am again.

After a while...

I can't say anything new, nothing has changed or if it had it's not such a great fuss.
I've signed up for the final exam.
I've broken up with Andras.
Mum's making herbs&cream coated trout for lunch. it's going to be awesome.
I haven't talked with Julia so far though she has promised that we will.
I can't find my way.
I will hate english classes.
As well as history and hungarian literature, unless it's the opt.

I just don't know what to do.

Thes year is giving me the creeps in advance.

I have almost forgotten this journal.

Jeez.

School is approaching, and i just don't want to acknowledge it, though i know that i'll have to do so in the nearest future. We'll have to pick up or books next friday.

My room's a total mess.

I've fucked up a folder, because that stupid wrapper was crumbling. And i'm out of that paper.

I haven't finished anything i had to.

These were the happenings of my lovely life's last two weeks.

Oh, jeez, i have so many things to finish...

I've started restaurating a book from 1943, i have to finish that, some commissions are waiting too, 2 more half-bound unique books are on the shelf and i(still) haven't updated my fuzzy squirrel journal and blah.
I'm lazy. This summer holiday is getting boring.

i'm alive in case you wondered.


pfffffh. i'm bored like shit.
And fed up with Swallow. Fuck it. Spontaneousity is not the same as negligence, shit.

phew.

the valley of arts-project gets more and more fucked up.

im bored.

stupid summer.

i don't feel like doing anything.
(however, i should be restaurating that book from 1943. i'll upload pictures if i don't forget it...i hope my new computer will be ready tonight)

It's raining.

I'm bored of my musics. Any new suggestions?

I hate being home. IT's all the fuss about giving lunch to the smaller ones and clean after them. Shit. Being a moter is not much fun. (Or who knows, if you love those children better than anything, it might be ok, but i'm getting furious.) Especially my sister makes me upset. She's wandering around the house saying she's bored like shit, and does those goddamn annoying little things that everyone does when bored, but she gets everything out and fucks to rearrange things as they were. Now, what would be the perfect way to entertain yourself? DO THOSE FUCKING CHORES, DAMMIT AND CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF!

Gwaaaahh.

The Valley of Arts project...not much progress. I'm sleeping or cleaning or with Andras. Exceptions are rare.
I've been making some commission books but i've forgotten to upload pictures, as usual. Whatever.

shit, i've been eating too much candies.
Far too much.

Doxy Roksy powaaa.

Still no conclusion, no conclusion, i'm getting annoyed.
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i've been making books for The Valley of Arts. Peter said that there will be no problem if we sell there things without permission, because everyone else's doing that and we can't be caught anyway. Or too easily. Well, i hope it will be so.

Andras is coming, too:)
Sleeping in the tent with him, selling books and drinking til our noses start to bleed- that's exactly what i need this summer.

I can't wait until the 27 july.

Imagine that you have some piles of trimmed-to-size and folded signatures, ready to be sewn. and imagine that you are too lazy to clean your paint palette. And imagine a strong wind that came with a storm yesterday night.

Can you guess what can you find next morning?